Sooo... Haven't written in a while.. I have been feeling bad about my last post..due to it's intensity. I want to apologize.. even if you say I don't have to. I feel like I must. I don't usually show my true feelings outwardly. (not good..I know) but sometimes I end up like an overflowing volcano. just exploding.. so yes I'm sorry.
So there is something else I would like to talk about.. my life as a military wife. I don't true live the typical military lifestyle. With Josh just being in the national guard he only does one weekend a month and 2 weeks out of the year... so when he got the job back in september working on military vehicles.. it has been creeping up on me. Now he is gone for 3 weeks..training.. then off to wisconsin then to iraq. Now I don't EXACTLY know what full time military wives go through. but I am about to find out the hard way.
I must say, since the day that Josh decided to join the army..I have been nothing but proud of him. He has sacrificed so much to better himself and his family. It truely touches my heart that he is so brave as to risk his life to fight for our country.. I have to be honest..I haven't always been the most patriotic.. but now it is instantly and directly effecting my life. . All I can do is be there for the love of my life and deal.
People ask me how I feel about him going. Well.. this is usually my immediate response.. "what choice to I have?" it's the government. they pretty much own him. it's not like he can just say "no I don't want to go, I have a wife and kids" .. there are thousands and thousands that go overseas every year leaving their girlfriends, mothers, fathers, wives, children... and It DOES effect a lot more than just those people..
Maybe I'm biased..but, my husband is truely a hero. He has been through so much and is still so strong.. I couldn't ask for better!
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